A Silly METAPHOR.........4th Sept.2011, Pondicherry (somewhere in South India)..

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..2day morning my LAPTOP  got crashed, I was 

NUMB, STUNNED, SHOCKED for awhile.... everything seemed so plain..suddenly cos that was my only source of entertainment during dis trip to Pondicherry....but now by evening I've come to my senses.., I' ve accepted the reality,... I've picked it up to its case,... all d accessories related to it have been put into its storage till it gets to repair,.....now I've found out the solace in my iPod nano n book that I didn't care when laptop was oozing its charm....perhaps dis d way it works wit d life too..... when someone near n dear one leaves your life for bigger purpose or 4evr...it certainly takes times 2 adjust wit d loss..but eventually we do...we try 2 distance 4rm d things that would remind us of the person..we have lost...only difference is the damage to the laptop is reparable... n loss of human isn't....n...we have 2 live with it.....

Yes!!! Dat was Yesterday………..I Fought for my life ….n I WON…

Yes!! I do admit that I have been very bad..absolutely bad to so many people..cause they only know that they were the one responsible for that state of mine…yes!! I have fallen in and outta love several times like normal humans do…cause I too had an untamed heart then…. I have traveled through this ugly road cause that was the only way I knew then….. I have fought with the dragons inside me and at times I have been scared to death cause of the excruciating pain thus caused…

...yes! I got intoxicated in order to take myself away from those shit that life had given to me…it gave me a magical relief and made me delusional….to forget you were not a choice but a compulsion…I had to rearrange myself in a new world without you…Yes! I have cried while walking through the rain….tried to talk with those stars.... gazed at the moon hoping for some signs & answers …..Yes! I have been human on several occasions of my life….but in the end.. the feeling didn't change the reality…

And when I look back now…I have no regrets..what I am right now is the consequences of my choice,... I am the only one responsible for myself…
My past is here to guide me ..not to judge me…I am PROUD to be MYSELF.

The Quest continues......

..the road that has been less traveled... I dare to walk, venture into an endless odyssey of wilderness, perhaps in the process I may discover new me in myself, find lost me in myself and start to appreciate what was immaterial to me, see the new signs of life at the end of the tunnel. 

Well this is wishful thinking but certainly, there is a chance if you believe in...but still the road is long and winding....n I could never stop walking...

Yes, you can...

Because it's only when you're tested that you discover who you truly are. And it's only when you're tested that you discover who you can be. it's only when you are left alone in the battle then you will realize that you can move the mountains...The person you want to do exist, somewhere on the other side of hard work, faith and belief, and beyond heartache and fear of what lies ahead.....

There is a story behind every faces….

I have a strong reason to believe that every face we see on the street has a story to tell, a story to bury within, a story to spread across the persons with similar fate and faces. Always looking for someone to hear it through with compassion, share it to the ill-fated a soul like them so that burden unleashes by itself..but only a few lucky ones get to be that privileged. The moment one goes through can never be the same to others, the moment on the cold dark cell, the moment in the time of stupidity, insanity, those watchful eyes, penetrating voices and melancholy call…everyone has their own share of happiness and sorrows. To live and live it through is two different things for which I would say - One doesn’t need life to live a life but needs the heart to do so… whenever I see and meet people, I have been very meticulous to consider the things from their point of view, try to walk with them in their darkest hour, try to look through their eyes and with their perspective. Many of the times I have been blessed to have found people like me and blessed enough to unleash the burden that I have been carrying within my soul…but like always nothing lasts forever. People come and go, I continue to long for more and story keeps compiling, keeps unfolding and rolling…But yesterday I found the only person whom I can lean on and believe in, share everything that has been inside me since the day I started to feel blood in my vein and  pain in the heart... because he has been through the same, walked all along with me in my best of days and worst of nights.. it's you, man, you are the one… whose face I see in the mirror…at last we met …phew!!!

When you dare.....Yes, I have the audacity to walk into d trouble land, to get into the mess which doesn't concern me...take the unknown path that has never been traveled...n in d process I end up hating myself ..at times..when things go terribly wrong..:(